Been Too Long

Well after almost 2 months I'm actually going to take the time to write some of the millions of thoughts that have been circling in my head for the last 2 months when I had time to actually sit down and think about them.

October was a crazy month. I felt like I spent more of it outside of Wilmington than I did in it. After starting the month hectic extraing and doing side projects I made a much needed trip home to see my family. I forgot how much I missed them and Arkansas until I was there. My family is the greatest support system a person could ask for. I will be grateful and spend the rest of my life trying to give back to them the support they have shown me with this crazy dream and move of mine. After several days of TONS (and I mean TONS) of food, a football game, seeing as many people as possible and some much needed time just talking to my parents I felt better than I ever have about where I'm going. That was until I got back and realized that I'm still "unemployed" and my plan has nothing set in stone which is difficult for me to deal with, but I'm learning to go with the flow and accept what life gives you as it comes.

The week that followed my weekend at home flew by filled with projects, writing, e-mailing, sending resumes, etc. It seemed like it was no time later and I was back in the air going to Orlando, FL to see my best friend Lindsay for a belated birthday celebration in Disney World. Now I've said it before but I forever be a little kid when it comes to Disney and I loved every second of the trip. Being back in a place that was home and still feels like home was great. Not to mention I got to spend a weekend without worrying about anything. I did do some soul searching and research on careers at Disney but other than that the outside world did not exist and it was amazing. Not to mention I got drunk at EPCOT, got to see Boyz II Men and got so much candy that I will be set until after the first of the year. Disney will always have a special place in my life and I'm working on going back very soon.

Since being back from Disney I have hit a couple rough patches, had a couple down days but I think those come to anyone who is struggling to attain a dream. Since then I have reaffirmed that my passion and my faith are going to get me where I need to be. I hope that it is here in Wilmington but I am starting to accept that I don't know for sure what is going to happen or when it is going to happen so my plans are officially in flux and will remain that way for a very long time.

This past weekend was my sisters birthday and I wished I could have been home with her and my family to celebrate but there will be plenty of that when I'm home for Thanksgiving in a couple weeks. However I did a surprise on her birthday, my parents had purchased tickets to see Garth Brooks in Las Vegas in February. Now I knew my dad had been talking about how he had wanted to go but I never thought that he would actually get the tickets and we would be going next year. This will be my first trip to Las Vegas and I'm so excited about it. We will be there for a weekend and I am already counting down the days and researching what sites I want to see while I'm there.

Considering I will be so close to the West Coast and LA I'm am contemplating an extension to the trip and hitting up LA to meet with a couple producers I have made contacts with recently. Of course this is all dependent on where my job status is at that point but I have always dreamed of going to LA and I think that it would be a great opportunity to go.

This weekend will mark my 5th month in Wilmington. I can't believe that it's been that long. I have had a roller coaster of a ride here and I honestly don't regret anything that has happened. I am a totally different person than I was back in June before moving here. I have learned a lot about myself, about others, and about how to handle those things you can never predict and move past the hard times and make the best out of a bad situation. I've made friends, and lost friends since I arrived here, I've gained and lost interest in many things, I've learned and lived. My priorities have shifted and my dreams grown stronger. My writing has changed with my changes and I am seeing things through perspectives I would have never thought of before. Even if everything doesn't work out like I dreamed it would I will always look back and think that this was the greatest thing I have ever done for myself.

This is long and rambling and probably doesn't make since but I've missed writing on here. I have been channeling the thoughts that I used to post here into my writings more lately and have been more guarded at what I share with the world but I'm ready to share again. This blog is therapeutic to me and though I don't see why anyone would want to read it those of you who do I thank you because without the support of friends like you I would struggle with the strength to forge on somedays. Thank you all.